Are you ever Disturbed?

My 60 ste Skryfstuk. πŸ‘πŸ‘πŸ‘

Die beste terapie vir my onder die son. Hierdie ene dra ek dus op aan “myself”; sodat ek dit gereeld kan lees en kan gefokus bly, wanneer die ‘disturbances’ kom. πŸ‘

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Ek dink die woord “disturbance” is baie meer beskrywend as die goeie afrikaanse woord, ontsteltenis.

Disturbance has the ring to something that is really troubling, really heavy, really bad. Something you and I keep thinking about 24/7; and surely something that we can’t seem to be able to get rid of or make right….

Synonyms are: Troubled, Disconnected, Unsettled, Upset, Disruption, Irritation.

When our hearts are troubled, and our minds gets upset, our thoughts and our energy goes into a state of difficulty, bereavement and sorrow, day and night. (Wat die hart van vol is, loop die mond van oor.) People who go numb and do not face truth in these emotions, will start lingering on other distractions, as to ignore the real roots of their disturbances.

Does this sound fimiliar to anyone out there? Can you write down a list of happenings that steals your peace, sometimes and even on a daily basis? Surely I can. But this is the wrong question? The better question would be:

Can we do something about it?

My first reaction usually to this 2nd question, is to start pointing out all the problem areas. All the angles from which I am sure I have no bussiness in. I tend to personalise things, and I find out where I am “not guilty” in all of these happenings, which disturbes my soul. Again, does this sound familiar to anyone?

I am not busy bashing myself here. I am merely reflecting “disturbedness-thinking” or rasionalising it, in every human being at some point in time. Emotions that are being activated by disturbance, will be anxiousness and worries, self-pitty and of course the popular victom-response. There are many more.

Don’t we love to preech to one another to simply have peace? We love to answer people whom we can hear stuggles a lot, that they must just find “peace”. I know for a fact, and from experience that preeching those kind of quick-fix-words, even add more to that person’s disturbance. Why? Because they never tell you exactly how you should find this wonderful (and so called quick) peace, which seems to come their way, so naturally. You rather feel weaker in your faith than strengthened.

Today, I want to testify on this. On 1 October, this year, it will be 21 years ago that I truly accepted Christ as my Saviour and started serving and following Him. Did this happening leave me peaceful on each and every count? NO. Most certainly not! In fact, I think I have never been ‘disturbed’ by so many attacks of difficulty, bereavement, disillusionement, sadness and what not, as I have experienced the last 9 years!

I am not surprised though, because my faith in CHRIST is disturbing Satan’s empire quite a lot. This writing however, will not glorify darkness.

So what have I learnt? I once again, agree, with this morning’s devotion on finding peace within disturbances. Over the last 9 years, I have learnt that the moment I fix my eyes and my thinking on the problem, on the attack, or on anything for that matter, that does not go according to my planning or my way, I become troubled/disturbed/anxious/worried and I lose track of truth. In all truth, this means I start focussing on darkness.

Every time I worry things out…..and boy oh boy, I do, and I have done so, many times, “I obliterate (exterminate) Him”…. quoting Oswald Chambers from today’s devotion. This means, I literally choose to take Jesus “out” of the picture.

This is true. I cannot even argue.

Time and time again, I realise, that the moment I reflect peace, it is proof that I am in right standing with God, no matter what my circumstances around me, tells me. I have learnt, that everytime I am not right with God, my mind turns nowhere else, but on myself. Me. Myself. And I. And on other’s mistakes and/or their weaknesses. This is wrong. This is self-inflickting emotional downfall.

The truth is, we get disturbed, because we have not been considering Him.

Last week, I decided to share some of my “disillusionments”, (which very much disturbs my mind) with a close and trustworthy friend. We must do so. Share. Why? Because God gives us the obligation to help carry each other’s burdens. Galatians 6. Not to gossip about each other’s burdens nor judge or ignore them, but to be of help in a truthful and honest way. I’d like to call it, the James 3:17-18-Way!

She listened carefully to all I have to say. (As is written in James 3:17-18 ). The moment she answered me…..I knew I was receiving truth from the Holy Spirit. “Karen. You are exactly where God wants you. Do not be troubled, she said. Wait for the Light. It will come to you.”

The thing is. When Jesus speaks His peace right into our hearts, He does so, when we are truly ready to receive it. John 14:27. His timing is just perfect. It is us who are slow and too self-conscious to hear Him arrive.

Peace comes from looking into His face. Peace comes from telling Him exactly how disturbed we are and why. Because He know already. He sees our hearts long before we find the courage to look into our own hearts. And He wait for us, to turn to Him. To SEE His undisturbedness. To draw from His undisturbedness. To realise His undisturbedness is eternal. He will take charge if we let Him. He remains exactly who He is. Undisturbed. He will answer and shed light, when the time is right. Isaiah 49:9. Jeremiah 33:3.

He does not beat around the bush and He does not scratch our backs or praise our pitty parties. Never! He does not accuse us either. He listens. And the moment we are ready to HEAR Him, we will receive Him. His words. His guidance. His peace. His Light.

“My peace I give unto you. Let not your heart be troubled.” Jesus’s words.

The question I suppose that needs to be asked is this: Didn’t you perhaps cause this disturbances yourself? Then He will tell you and guide you and help you to wait, or to go and make right.

It will be either Isaiah 50:10, or it will be Matthew 18:15-20. You and I will know, and we will only hear and go, and DO what is right, when we cannot and “want not” deal with our own disturbances any longer. Choice. Always free choice.

Ask, and ye shall receive.

Hear Him say: “Let not your heart be troubled.”

SHALOM.

I give credit to Oswald Chambers, My Utmost for His Highest. P. 168-169, August, 26, devotion.

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